A Heart to Hold - When Genuine Allyship Becomes Infrastructure

There is a particular quality to being in a room with genuine allyship. You do not have to explain yourself before you are understood.

Not a training room. Not a workshop with a slide deck and a learning objective. A room where people arrive with a book, they leave having said something they did not know they were carrying and say it out loud, maybe for the first time.

I have been sitting in a space like that. A reading group rooted in Black joy and Black healing. It is rooted in the body of Black thought that insists joy and healing belong together. We have read Tricia Hersey's Rest is Resistance. A book that names rest as structural refusal against systems built on extraction. We have read Black Joy, edited by Charlie Brinkhurst-Cuff and Timi Sotire. A collecrion of twenty-eight Black British voices writing about what joy looks like from the inside. Not as performance or resilience for someone else's comfort. Joy as a full and unmediated human experience. We have read Afrofuturist fiction and essays on refusal. These texts refuse to make Black joy a footnote to Black suffering.

The reading list is wide. The conversations are wider. And the thing that makes it possible is not the books.

It is the holding.

The Black Joy Healing Project is led by Dr Tanisha Spratt and Dr Nkasi Stoll at King's College London. It is funded by Wellcome and investigates how Black joy supports health and wellbeing among Black Britons. Its structural significance is not only in what it studies. It is also in how it was built.

Wellcome did not design the project. They resourced it and then stepped back. They gave funding and authority to the people whose lived knowledge makes the work credible. They trusted academic rigour and cultural understanding within the community. Two Black women doctors lead work that is theirs to lead. An organisation did not simply decide what the community needed and bring them in to deliver it. Instead, the organisation understood that real allyship means resourcing people to lead. It also means getting out of the way.

That distinction is everything.

When leaders are genuinely held at that level, they can hold others. When the community is held, individuals within it can activate. They can reimagine, create, and navigate a world that will continue to present challenges. The ripple moves outward. This does not happen because the challenges disappear. It happens because something is actually supporting stability.

That is infrastructure. Quiet, structural, unglamorous infrastructure. And it is exactly what most DEI strategies are not.

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A conversation with leadership at Black Minds Matter confirmed what the body already knew. The quality of holding at the top determines what becomes possible further down. When people work in sectors where harm is present, ending that harm is the point of the work. When they are resourced and understood, they are not performing wellness for an audience. They are better able to hold and support the people they are there for.

This is not sentiment. It is a structural finding.

And yet most performance frameworks have no way of measuring it, and so they do not.

Instead, they measure the training. The attendance. The policy. The statement on the website.

Tricia Hersey would recognise this immediately. The same systems that cannot conceive of rest as productive cannot conceive of holding, of care, as infrastructure. Both require an organisation to believe that what happens inside a person matters, not only what they produce. That belief is either built into the structure or it is absent from it. There is no middle ground that works.

And then someone falls through the gap that the performance if allyship created. Quietly at first. Then loudly, in a resignation, a HR intervention, a referral that lands somewhere else in the system of institutional blindness. The cost does not disappear. It fragments. It moves downstream, disconnected from its origin. And the organisation that opened the gap never witnesses what fell through it, or what it continues to cost.

That is the real cost of box-ticking. Not the optics. The gap it leaves open, and what keeps falling through it.

Reading Rock My Soul in community connected something I had been circling for a long time. Hooks writes with precision about self-esteem and the conditions it requires. The space was safe enough to hold contradictions in her work too. We could question and push back. We could sit with tensions that arise when Black people discuss Black culture honestly among themselves. That is a different kind of safety. It is the kind you cannot mandate or train into existence. We could hold the complexity and still return to celebrating Black joy and Black healing. Both things were true at once.

What Hook names sits at the heart of the SSCS™  (Self-Soothing Creative Steps) framework I have been developing for years. She names the spiritual dimension of self-worth and what it means to feel your existence has value. That value sits beyond what you produce or perform.

The spirituality component of SSCS™ is not a single thing. For some people it lives inside their faith. It is the place where religion and spirituality share the same root. They feed the same sense of being held by something beyond the immediate. For others it has nothing to do with organised belief. It is an interior life that refuses to be reduced to what is measurable or productive. Both are true. The framework points toward a felt sense that your existence has meaning. Wherever it lives for you, that meaning extends beyond what you perform or produce. It affirms that belonging is not conditional on your output.

Reading hooks in that group did not give me the framework. But it showed me, from the inside, what the framework is trying to protect.

You cannot think your way to that. You have to have experienced it.

A Heart to Hold began in a moment of being held by a person, not by a system or strategy.

That is where the painting started. It began in that specific quality of care. It is the kind that does not require you to perform your need before it is met. I did not know then that I was making a piece about infrastructure. I thought I was making a piece about relief. The longer I sit with it, the more I understand they are the same thing.

What does it mean to hold something — or someone — with care? Not to process them. Not to tick the box that confirms you did. To hold them in a way that leaves them more able to hold themselves.

When you feel held by others, you can hold yourself.

That is the SSCS™ framework speaking in real time — across individual and organisation, across community and culture. It is what genuine allyship produces when it is structural rather than performative. It is what becomes possible when funding follows trust, and trust follows genuine understanding of what the work requires.

The question for any organisation serious about truly seeing its people is not: have we done the training?

It is: have we built the conditions in which people can actually be held?

Those are not the same question. And the distance between them is where the gap opens.

If you are a leader navigating that gap, the Narrative Alignment Reflection is where to begin. If the distance between what your organisation says and what people inside it experience feels impossible to ignore, start there. It will help you locate where it is showing up.

Whether you're experiencing this — or responsible for it — this is where you start.

Because here, is where art becomes your strategy.